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Calgary, Alberta, Canada
I am a lot of things - I am limited edition, not weird :) . A Christ Lover and a fashion lover. I love crime and comedy shows (or movies) .. and I always move on no matter what :)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011


For the past week; I have come to realize why love is very important; am talking about the agape kind of love, the one you have for your friends and family. I don't intend to go all "spiritual" on you but I need you to understand the basis of my views.

So first, the first and second commandments are the most important " Love your Lord your God with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself" Matthew 22: 37-40. These are the 2 most important commandments.

Well, thinking about it, how can you show love to others if you can not love yourself, how can you appreciate others and see beyond their weaknesses if you don't truly understand your worth? I think it's hard; it explains why some people stay in hurtful and abusive relationships (ie. PLAIN BAD relationships). Well, I have never fallen in love (only STRONG like lol) so I might not understand. But people hold on to what ruins their own lives sometimes. They forget that they will be better without the person and that there is ALWAYS someone out there who would appreciate them for them. (this is not d issue today, I will write about this another time). so Learn to Love yourself unconditionally first. Find your strengths and identify your weaknesses; find  a means whereby you can let your strengths over-shadow your weaknesses ( you can apply this at work as well).

So back to agape love, Love yourself and then love others as yourself. Loving others is seeing past their negatives; am not saying being stupid in your choice of friends/associations lol. But sometimes eh, we just judge people, look down on them, or write them off even before knowing them oh. We can work on that lol.  Love is soft; I mean the soft things you do for people. When you genuinely put a smile on someone's face. Like a simple call, a hug, a smile (those little things). Love is giving; your time, money, talents and so on. Love is patient; to take-in soo much from someone takes love. Love is forgiving; I know it's hard to let go of hurts sometimes, and I know that it's people who we care about that deeply hurt us. But it's important to let go of the desire of revenge and the hurts. Love is encouraging, being there in hard times; listening and giving encouraging words. Love is truthful; being able to correct your friend or family when they stray. But remember not to judge, instead listen and wisely correct. You want to be effective. Love is when your friend goes down and you just want to do everything you can to help them rise again. Love is caring, caring I mean from the heart and not the fake type you experience in various communities.

I feel like love is one of lives biggest investments; seriously, you find yourself being peaceful and light-hearted, you find that you are slow to anger, you begin to see beyond the "things" you have heard about people, and begin to see the beautiful things in their lives and maybe even help them develop these things. Love moves things, ha! trust me it does! Also because love is giving, givers never lack. Because when you are in need there is always a form of provision. Givers never lack :) .

Love is important because it is the basis of a well-lived and fulfilled life. Look at people who truly make a difference around you, whom people just like for reasons you sometimes don't understand. They do Love.

~~Abi Tobi ♥ ~~

n.p. share ur views too xx

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

In You.....

My heart longs to be;
In the place you please,
My mind yearns to stay;
In the world you want

I want your love;
To grow and stay;
I want that faith;
that moves mountains
I love that trust;
that never looks back

For like a child;
I grow and need your grace,
Your wisdom and faith
to keep me in you.

Create in me a heart;
A heart like yours;
That is sooo forgiving
And soo gentle
That will seek YOU always
and would find LIFE in you

I never wanna look back (Lord)
For in you I have found Peace;
and love and assurance
and ALL that makes my heart sing......

Today am HOT; Tomorrow am NOT

In lingerie & heels;
red lips & long nails;
Almost lingerie I say,
& eyes keep following

"oh HOT damn!"
Men say
I smile and say "you can't taste"
But I sway back
... I got 6 dates and counting

But today I am a bit sane;
A lil' insane to the world still:
I decide to show my nappy hair
a pair of jeans and a simple top
light make-up; they barely notice
I feel like Gold
And I feel BEAUtiFUL

But am treated differently,
Not like I was yesterday,
Like my worth was in my "sexy"
With almost no man seeing beyond

The girls think am crazy;
Because I don't care who's looking
and because today, I won't......

But it doesn't matter who doesn't see
It only matters who does;
the girls don't have to like it/ understand;
For how can two parallel lines meet?

Today am HOT,
Tomorrow am not..
Am beyond that;
a gift given from above;
and my worth over-flows inside-out

It doesn't matter who doesn't see
It only matters who sees.......

Monday, March 14, 2011


I was supposed to have a midterm tomorrow but but my Instructor moved it to next Tuesday! YAY! More time to be here *double YAY* lol....   I was just sitting down and then I remembered a conversation I had with a friend; oh yes! You guessed right!.. it has to do with love :$ what can I say? Am in love with love and almost everyday, I learn something new about it... plus na our right to be loved o! lol...

Anyways, back to the issue here; my friend keeps complaining that she can't stand a guy "PDA-ing" (pda = Public Display of Affection ) She thinks it's annoying and somewhat unnecessary... hmmmmmm......The first time she mentioned it, I kept quiet for like 2 minutes, my eyes opened widely and and... Well, maybe it’s just me...

But really, if my man kissed me in front of his friends; I might get embarrassed or shy but I will feel like he is happy to "flaunt" me in front of them... If he drew me closer in public; in front of strangers, it will make me feel like he wants the world to know he desires me more... And holding my hands; how else can he tell them all that we belong together?... and kisses on the forehead?   the list goes on... : D

Well, PDA-ing, goes more than that; it's the little things, it has little to do with being orgasmic and nothing to do with being disrespectful; I feel like it strengthens the bonds and connections between two people. But wait! I am not talking about relationships where one party isn't treating the other right; like not being there; beating; disrespecting/putting down the other  in front of people or when they are alone... nah! Those are not in my definition of a good relationship...

Okay! to be clear, am not saying couples should be all "PDA" all the time (that can be annoying), and am not saying it's soo important....but I just think it's cute; I think when it's unexpected is when it's cutest (not the akward type of unexpected lol) Plus it's good to know and feel like your partner is GLAD to be yours and you his/hers...(hehehehe)...

Maybe I watch toooo many Hollywood movies, Right? Or maybe am the hopeless romantic? I do not know but this is my take on PDA...

Soooo how do you view it? Unnecessary? Affirming?

Saturday, March 12, 2011

One Night....

Okay, I don't even know if it is okay to blog about this; but I will anyways...
In the past months-year, I have been strange, OMGOODNESS! I had internally transformed from this "happy, whatever happens, let's DO this" lady to a "what kind of thing is this?" person... and yes! it has affected some relationships I have/had.....

Constant prayers, and I kept losing faith and my believe in God... why? I don't know... Actually, it made no complete sense that I prayed and believed but felt like heavens intentionally shut down its ears on me... You know that feeling of being caged up? and that very heavy heart you can't explain, with words you can not say? yeah, that!... lol I can't still believe it was me in .. it's funny and weird...

How can someone change just like that? like seriously, how can I not have laughed at situations or stories or jokes... I naturally laugh at almost everything (even the silliest things) what happened? I could have just made jokes about things and taken more effective/positive routes to change situations, right?.....

Anyways, I think sometimes we pray a-miss, we expect things to work in certain ways even if they are not God's plans for us... We just forget? Forget to ask him to lead...? or to give us some peace or assurance...? I don't know; I don't have all the answers :S

hmm.... It all changed one night; I mean it: OneNight... I changed my prayer; I asked for God to show me, and speak to me, and let me know what to do..... and God answered and did more than just answer...

okay, maybe I am just hyped because am not your regular "spiritual" kind of person.. I still have a lot to work on (and ...that's by the way)....

I realize now that I have been blind to lots of things; my environment; needs of people around me; blessings of people around me; things that were atleast alright in my life; I forgot that I was (still am) suppossed to be a blessing to everyone I meet (hehehehehe) ; I was blind to ways of turning things around for myself.... I think my approach to finding an answer was wrong....

And the believe that there is no GOD is unbelievably "WOW-ing" because HE IS. .....But I guess we all need that personal encounter with him (right!).. Trust me, I have been there before; trying to live my life without HIM (but ...I FAILED.. lol )

It's just a little testimony I don't know if it's okay to share..

with LOVE...
Abi Tobi

On this Note I will like to say; my "madness" don overdue... :D

Friday, March 4, 2011


March me to glory; lead me to grace;
Take me to heights;
I can not reach;
Lead me on; a step or two

March, oh March!
I don't know who you are
I don't know what I owe
but I want the kiss in the rain
the one that calms,
the one that stays....

Mine or not;
I could enjoy;
a moment or two
with memories, I want to linger
a sweet story; I want to share..

Make me who I used to be
Bring me the best;
Heaven! open your ears
Pour down your grace

March oh March!
I want the best
in you for me
and for you my friend.......